The snow was spectacular that being said I never seen so much snow, it took me about 20 minutes in the -35 degree weather that was nice and quiet and peace! I love snow shoveling for that. It was just as the sun was shoveling and I am thankful for the watching if the sun raise as I did the ‘chore’. I was able to relax, wake up properly. This sounds like a cup of coffee though I started to think this was better than coffee. At least I can sleep later! That being said I had found this quiet and energizing for me to see as I started to shovel. I was able to collect the thoughts from the night and day before. I some times just need this time to relax and collect may thoughts.
Though the snow was very heavy it was still refreshing for me to just read in to my thoughts and live in my head for a little bit. That said, I hear of a lot of ‘trouble makers’ living in their heads, but it is not a bad thing at all! It depends for the person and what they are doing with their thoughts. I rather not act on the thoughts except to shovel the snow. That is it isn a literal chance to go in my head and out again! That is it. I also don’t mind the money that I got for the snow, but the emotional out weighs the money benefits….though I am getting money for a tattoo and blues fest!
This should be a form of emotional regulation as this is a form of exorcise!
That being said cold used to be a major ptsd trigger for me but I found that was not the case this winter even though it was very extremely cold for the most part. It was a dry cold though it damp will drive me insane . That being said I will mention this in my blog! Though I publically said I hate snow! Bullshit!
Beside the incoming snow that we got, I found a painting app that was less annoying (expensive) that I could use that being said I found that the drawing app was good though it would take me hours to get one panel done.
This picture to the left was the main character that I wanted to introduce to though I never thought I would find the app! This woman in the picture, what will be hear name? That is the question. Thought I started to question weather I should carry this out the graphic novel. The simple reason the apple pen disappeared which was rather annoying. I did not except to lose it -the apple pen!
The graphic novel is based on the book i reading. That being said I got the ‘by the horns’ on Monday for my birthday. That being said i am at page 7 where I am meeting the other main character, Raptor the minatour that I really could relate too from the beginning. That said he would have to mention that he was a bad invalid! That being, I am also a terrible invalid too. The last time I had surgery was for the wisdom teeth to be gone and I nearly kissed my job goodbye for a few fucking weeks, I have ADHD, a and I can’t be bothers sitting on my ass or lying on it doing balls all but playing with my Chinese stress balls! So I could related totally! That being said I never really like being on bed rest for anything…..the same thing happened when I first had Covid and it was a least a week until I could go back to work! I went nuts….when I feel great after I got nuts having to rest :p! That said I can relate to the monster with that particular thing. Which is a great start in my opinion.
I was told about monster smut when I was on YouTube that being said I fell in love with the genre though the YouTuber could not stand the books, I rather read the the monster smut then read normal smut. I was rather interested when I also went to the books for to go book gazing. I would return on Monday to retrieve the book ‘by the horns’ That being said i knew what was confronting me.,..and I needed to read this. Not just to drive the YouTuber crazy though I wanted genuinely read these books! I thought I would enjoy a good read but the fact that I could relate to the characters was rather interesting even on something as annoying as being sick.
I am also write my own monster smut on deviant art and on Wattpad. Though I am starting to wonder validity of Wattpad now because I had some very colourful people on there. That being said I started to think it might not be all that safe but I am addicted to it so I can only block. That being said I want to say that this was a good beginning to the book i am reading.
Finally I got the cure for my writers block which felt like necrotizing fasciitis, which is not fun for the most part. I was actually thinking that I would have to have the writers block removed from my brain though it was just imaginary. I am rather surprised that I would really love monstersmut, with a passion .
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